Sometimes in life things do not go as we planned them to go.
I am learning everyday that things are subject to change and that could be on a moment by moment basis, I am learning to adjust to things and that takes time.

Wow today marks my 1 year of sobriety goal. I am absolutely thrilled that i have made it this far.I still have an incredibly long journey ahead of me and i look forward to the rest of the journey and doing the steps over and over again and looking at life as a journey and celebration. Lovergirl24

Wow what an amazing time it has been.I finally am truely at peace with myself and am okay with who i am. I found a wonderful man in this process that has gone to meetings with me and held my hand on the darkest nights that i did not think i could go without something called alcohol coursing through my veins.It seemed like only yesterday that i walked into an A A meeting that i was forced to go to and it ended up being my saving grace.
lovergirl

Wow am amazed to look back now knowing that I only have 116 Days left to go until my one yr of Sobriety date. I am so very happy and realize that I have grown so very much. I am going to celebrate my date by deadicating it to God as He is the one that has been gracious in allowing me to keep my sanity long enough to obtain sobriety.

lovergirl

Wow still sober!!!!!! I didn't think that this was every possible but now I know that anything is possible if you set your mind and heart to do the task which you seek to do.

Wow I never thought that it was possible to have achieved 4 months of Sobriety.I am amazing myself everyday.I am working the 12 steps I have taken my time and I just got done with the
11th step and I am at the realization that anytime I try to do something I have to first examine why I am doing that action? Anyways, Just wanted to let everyone know that recovery is possible.
Lovergirl

I am dealing with a lot of uncertainty these days.I have had a few real rough blows with the way I am having to live life.I finally understand why my sponsor keeps telling me it is about living life on life's terms not on my own unrealistic thinking.My thinking is still jacked up at times. Sometimes, I feel like the world should revolve around me and that I should have control over the things that happen in my life.WRONG!!!!!!! I am merely on a journey in which the rules are my higher power or God or whatever you may wish to believe in . See the things that I did were not really control or anything close to that;it was manipulation and self seeking destructiveness.So control is now out of my vocabulary and submission is the word I am using to replace it.I am now submiting or as some word care to call it surrendering my mind,will and emotions over to a loving God as I understand or don't understand Him.
Lovergirl

I now have over 90 Days of Sobriety so I am hoping to continue my sucess and keep working towards my first year of sobriety.For the fisrt time in my life I am accomplishing my goals. I hope that all others on this journey are doing well also.
Lovergirl

God saw you getting tired,
And a cure was not to be.
So he put his arms around you,
And whispered, "Come to Me."
With tearful eyes we watched you,
And saw you pass away.
Although we loved you dearly,
We could not make you stay.
A golden heart stopped beating,
Hard working hands put to rest.
God broke our hearts
To prove to us,
He only takes the best.

Hey I know this rough at best for me however i feel like I am meant to post this.

Working through the darkness

Can't breathe can you?
Can't sleep hearing the screams?

Blinded by the pain that once bound you.
Walking through the darkness, you hide away.
You feel like everything is black and that it runs like a river
coursing through your veins,still you hide away.

Locking myself in a closet because I run and hide in fear.
My stomache knots up and I feel the vile guile arise from
a deep dark pit.

From on the surface, I seem okay but do you see me even deeper?
I feel these hills in my soul get steeper
See as you walk in darkness, I am working through mine.

I am in very different writing mode so if this seems very different from my usual it is because it is supposed to be that way.